Final exam week

The date it is supposed to be posted: a week before 22nd of May.

ITS STUDY WEEK! So basically I don't have much to share. 
I don't really do study group. I can't, just I would consult one - two geniuses for private tutor before exam

But this is one nicely-written article on the Benefits of Studying Alone from Online Education Blog .

Some students prefer to study alone, while others prefer to study with friends. Although studying with friends has its advantages, in my point of view, I would like to study alone. The reasons are as follows.

When you study, especially when you study some subjects that are hard to understand, such as math and physics you need to concentrate on them. That requires a quiet environment without distractions. Studying alone can provide that, and you can read your books and think of questions without being disturbed. It will help you to understand the knowledge better and to remember the knowledge better

Furthermore, studying alone has another advantage that studying with friends does not have. That is it forces you to think. When you face some questions hard to solve, and there is no other students around you, you have to think of the questions hard and try you best to solve them. This gives you an opportunity to improve your ability to deal with problems by yourself.

The third advantage of studying alone is also the most important reason. It can make you think independently and have your own opinions. You have to think independently when you study alone. No one can give you interference or suggestions. You will not be affected by other people’s opinions. That can help you create your own thoughts, not to become a parrot. After all, the best parrots still live in cages.

 My preference would be to study alone because I'll GOSSIP more than studying if I sat in a study group. TEEHEEE. So, till then. 

XOXO

My babygirl is now 20th.

The date it is supposed to be posted: 10th of May.

I feel bad, like really bad. I didn't make it for a sharp 12am call upon my bestfriend's birthday because ummm...I dozed off just few minutes before 12am. Hahaha :P  I did apology to her,though and she said it was fine, since I made a surprised birthday celebration on the 9th. But still I managed to send few wishes on all the existed social networking app(s) that she registered in, Twitter, Facebook, iMessage, Whatsapp etc etc. I just love to mess with Daniele. So, of all the surprises and gifts I gave her on the 9th, excluded how cracked and surprised she was when she saw me at the lake with the balloon and pizza etc, I sooooooooooooooooooooo glad that she loved my card the most. Just like previous years, she would cry and apparently loved the card more than the gifts. I wonder if I had type the words of spell rather than words of wisdom inside there? Well, maybe I put those in a nicest way for her to read it, but uh oh I am NOT and freagin NOT a sweet talker, alright. Or maybe it is because all of these years I just love her more than she could ever imagine. She's my super ultimate unbiological sister to me. We share mom(s), dad(s), brother(s), and sister(s). So, pretts if you read this don't doubt me. I love you muah. 

p/s : Thanks wani for helping! 

XOXO

Goodbye buddy

The date it is supposed to be posted: 23rd of March.

Someone was leaving for Germany. Hello people, his name is Saifuddin. Din for short.

He left for Germany on 23rd of May, until.. we don't know when would he come back because he himself is not sure when will he come back for good. Anyway kalau balik pun tak sure dia balik Melesiya ke tak because his parents are kind of residences tetap dekat Brunei. So its kinda complicated. But hey, go chase your dream and balik jadi Engineer paling Hot and Popular okay! Dia sangat genius sampai I tak tahu dah nak describe genius dia tu macamana. Sedih lah because he'd leave the best girl in the world (My bestf; Zee) for life span and shit nangis tengok dia nangis. So gonna miss you, man. Sayonara.

I can't believe..

The date it is supposed to be posted: Someday in March. 

My sister now is an official married-woman. I am ultimately happy upon her wedding and stuff, that finally she has really found someone whom she loves wholeheartedly and my brother in law is HOT and used to be a chef student. Then now can you imagine? ( I loveeeeeeee men who can cook, they'll apparently look extra attractive with a Superman-apron on, busy cooking at the kitchen anddddddd usually they are creative, you know, they can make things look more romantic than we women can do *giggle* ). Okay I should stop writing benda tk penting. Back to the main thing, by the time I recorded videos of my sister's precious moment (on the solemnization day) on my phone (which all of them were unfortunately deleted because of the jailbreak thingy, I lost everything) I cried though, I was suddenly feeling so weak and laid on mom's lap and I told mom, "I am about to lose my best pillow-talk partner ever", to someone she loves very very very much. She was the best though ( during her single time ). We often go shopping together, we quarreled,  we'd lick each other's hand in a fight or spitted on each other's shirts, we shared foods at the our favourite restaurant, we loved milkshake, we used to share clothes, jeans, skirts even panties ( oh come on sisters do everything in emergency ), she would drive me out for a quick route around the town, she would fret every single thing that happened to her and her Diva bestfriends, we would yell at each other like we wanted the whole town to hear our thunder-voices, we scolded each other if either of us done the mess in our room (at the old house, we are no longer sharing room now )and a lot more. Oh, shit tears are streaming down as I write this! I can't continue to reminisce more things about us. I love everything in our childhood moment and just everything in the past. She was and still the best. I love you, kakak.

Sorry gambar adik pengantin and favourite people dia :P

XOXO

I owe you an apology.

My apology for being away and not keeping you updated with new posts. Well I have to admit that I was away for some sort of mind-refreshing things that happened to take days..weeks..and months. Until now I came back for real because they were these few anonymous people who gave me their wisdom and asked why have I stopped writing. I would love to give this lovely bunch of thanks to those who read ( as in past tense ) and are reading this blog. This is like my public diary, I put everything memorable here to be shared, thought and felt. So until the next post. 

XOXO

 ( NOT ME )

Who is Pete?

"DO NO HARM, BUT TAKE NO SHIT"

(Pete,2013)

"IF AN ASSHOLE HATES YOU FOR NO REASON, GIVES THAT ASSHOLE A REASON"

(Pete,2013)

Pete Pete Pete Pete Peeetite.

Asked me to remember this. Well I can munch quotes. I am quotes sucker, man.

So yeah both are kinda logic and make sense. You know, boys kalau ada quotes sendiri, cenggini lah very harsh but actually have meaning. Most importantly, tuan punya badan faham sudah lah kan. But ni I share because I told him both are quite strong. Macam bagi spirit ah hahaha lol. Ni pun yesterday because he had a lot to talk about something something kan, so 2 in 1 action, sharing and reminding lah in case I have problems I can use these. But yeah seriously guys if you do have your own quotes,kindly drop them here. I would love to know yours and who knows it might be useful someday. Sharing is caring kan. So yadayada, Happy Thursday! :)

p/s : Happy Birthday to Ajid a.k.a Pete's bestfriend. Long Live! 

Tududududa

(not a real message, just for the sake of picture)

To that one girl friend, Nadira Azmi. Thanks for this little something. I appreciate your concern and care.

For time being, I really enjoy my life like this. Having fun with everyone, having the chance to talk to everyone, and bla bla bla. So my life is not as sucks as few days before. But to be honest, I've been like this for months already, not these recent weeks je. Maybe everyone sees that has become too obvious dalam beberapa minggu ni lah kan but actually no. You know how 'A smile can hide a thousand pain' but nevermind bcs I macam dah pandai control and balance kan emotion for every situation so far (muahahahaha if my girls read this they might be laughing bcs I am the most kuat-nangis one) But yeah, of course not to be too negative and not to be too positive. Average, less judge,observe and listen more.

See!

I think I had mistaken your kindness and politeness. But yet I think you yourself had mistaken my clumsiness, how i talked about silly things these few days with something else. I am sorry if I made you feel that way, made you think I am bad. Ehhh?  But no actually because I am that kind of girl who's easily get attached to somebody. Even my bestfriends, I treat them like lovers. I macam sweet sweet lady lah. Hahaha okay no. It's just, I am myself. I am naturally like this. Possessive overcaring overthinking (always) and manja hihi.

But but but but but.. 
HEY 

Who cares ? Things actually settled already. I am way better than days before.
I was mad. Emotion unstable bla bla bla.
But today. This week. I can already enjoy my breakfast. Eat marshmallow for lunch.
Life is good after all. Life is perfect if I care less about some matters. 
Well, no pain no gain right. 

OH YAH
I stalked your twitter. You were missing somebody.I definitely have zero idea who's that babe. 
At least I can loosen up the stress-knot a bit. To less over think or overexcited. 
So, I am at ease to know everything is back to normal now.  

So, peeps.. 
Whatever yg happened, ada buruk baik nya. Tapi tak salah mencuba kalau nak.
Life experience right. Doesn't matter org kutuk ke, especially those yang know nothing tapi put their nose in our business ni. Just shoot their headddd. Oh no joke. Lol. 

Thank you for always and alwaaaaaaays being very supportive and hold my back. 

I truly love you girls

You came and now you left.

I saw you. I felt something. I didn't know it was you. They suggested. I rejected. I received a lot of regards. I replied. I was surprised you were the one I saw that day. You added. I approved. We started. We became close. We met. We talked. We shared. We laughed. We teased. We immersed. We excited. We worried. We cared. We anxious. We eager. We went to some places. You're caring. You're matured. You're protective. You're lovely. You're sweet. You're funny. You've principe. You're cool. You're talented. You're talkative. You're something that I've been looking for. We were very happy. That night. That seat. That fan. That computer. That tshirt. That roadways. That restaurant. That music. That tv. That chair. That table. That cola-lemon. That key I hid. That's all. That morning. We were started to not okay. I knew you were surprised. I became afraid of losing. Much afraid. I worried. I cried. People mocked. I did not care. I explained everything. Even before I knew you. Even since long ago. Even since year before. But you refused to understand. You became cold. You ignored. You disappeared slowly. I wondered. Why. I asked Him. Why. I asked Him what was happening. I asked myself. Was that how people feel about first-sight. I wondered. Because it was amazing when I first saw you. I did not ask this to happen. Because it came naturally. I did not ask to fall. Because I fall without I wanted to. I did not want to be seen as weird lady. But I had to prove. I did not want to hurt any party. But I had no guts to say it out. If only I could tell you. How you brought me into good mood. Positive thoughts and vibes. Excited day and night. Happy again. Smile always. But again, you refused to understand me. You stay cold. I'm sad. Still sad. I wish we could still be like before that morning. Because that's what I missed after awhile. I cannot move on. Because I am stranded in memories and good things with you. Even short time. It was wonderful. I am not lying. You're so addictive. I addicted. Again, I did not ask. But it happened. I do not want more. If you do not want too. But please treat me like before. Full of excitement. Full of joy. Full of laughter and jokes. Nicknames given. Share more stories. I miss that feeling. Again, very wonderful. If you read this. I am sorry. I am sorry for messing up everything. For falling. For admiring. For liking. I did not ask. It happened. Naturally happened. Though in a very short time. Please let me smile again. Be happy again. And not worrying about anything. So tonight, I decided to do it. Let Him show me what is the best. If he is the one. Then I will back off. If it is you. I will fight. I am sorry. Very very sorry. About everything that matters. 

HA.

I dah, you all?

After class my girlfriends and I went to LPPKN Kuching for HPV vaccination.

                                                              

  What is HPV?

Two vaccines are available to prevent the human papillomavirus (HPV) types that cause most cervical cancers. These vaccines are bivalent vaccine (Cervarix) and quadrivalent vaccine (Gardasil). One of the HPV vaccines, Gardasil, also prevents HPV types that cause most genital warts. Gardasil also has been shown to prevent some cancers of the anus, vulva (area around the opening of the vagina), and vagina. Both vaccines are given in 3 shots over 6 months.

Why is the HPV vaccine important?

Genital HPV is a common virus that is passed from one person to another through direct skin-to-skin contact during sexual activity. Most sexually active people will get HPV at some time in their lives, though most will never even know it. HPV infection is most common in people in their late teens and early 20s. There are about 40 types of HPV that can infect the genital areas of men and women. Most HPV types cause no symptoms and go away on their own. But some types can cause cervical cancer in women and other less common cancers— like cancers of the anus, penis, vagina, and vulva and oropharynx (back of throat including base of tongue and tonsils). Other types of HPV can cause warts in the genital areas of men and women, called genital warts. Genital warts are not life-threatening. But they can cause emotional stress and their treatment can be very uncomfortable. Every year, about 12,000 women are diagnosed with cervical cancer and 4,000 women die from this disease.

Which girls should and can receive HPV vaccination?

18 years old and above. For the time being, it is free. So girls, please go get your vaccination from the nearest LPPKN or Campuses that provide the vaccination.

How effective are the HPV Vaccines?

The vaccines target the HPV types that most commonly cause cervical cancer. One of the vaccines (Gardasil) also protects against the HPV types that cause most genital warts. Both vaccines are highly effective in preventing the targeted HPV types, as well as the most common health problems caused by them. The vaccines are less effective in preventing HPV-related disease in young women who have already been exposed to one or more HPV types. That is because the vaccines prevent HPV before a person is exposed to it. HPV vaccines do not treat existing HPV infections or HPV-associated diseases.

**Info taken from HPV Information  and edited by me.

Princess is happy after the first dose. Will be getting the second one on  the 1st of March soon. Till then.

(p/s: Ignore my arm's size. Some said it looks like drumstick size -.- maybe gambar dekat sangat kot hihi)