What twist me?

I am bleeding out emotions

I am coughing up fear

The biggest one of all is you not being here

Everything is changing as time passes by..

Now comes the question what should I do

Because my heart knows I still love you 

Anugerah Terindah by Aril.

Im actually like that little-boy, and yes I'm so touched by this music video.

Sunday is a funday

Its the most beautiful time of the yearLights fill the street spreading so much cheerI should be playing in the winter snowBut imma be under the mistletoe
Everytime I hear this song it have me to think that we are so near to the Christmas.Oh yahhhhh? its December 25th, few minutes past 12!

MERRY CHRISTMAS   !!MERRY CHIRSTMAS   !!MERRT MERRY CHIRSTMAS !!

Okay enough.Indeeply wishing for everyone that celebrating it today especially my lovely buddies in Sarawak there.
Somehow, not only for Christmas, but all the long year through, the joy that you give to others,is the joy that comes back to you. And the more you spend in blessing, the poor and lonely and sad, the more of your heart's possessing, returns to you glad. Merry xmas with love, me xoxo.

Burnt and bitter

Its windy.. Its cloudy..Its sometimes drizzle..With the unwanted thunderclaps..
No bird's chipping..No cat's caterwauling..Just a loud speckled of raindrop's sound..
*exaggerating much lah I hahaha padahal I still dengar the sound's of vroom-ing nor the voices of
 my neighbour's quarrel over themselves.*
Mummy and daddy I dont know since when they went out but I think I know the exact place they'll lepak every weekend, my new house. Tt, kakak and even me myself okay somehow like dont really like our new one since it is still fresh and like belum ada unifi lagi apa semua so we better duduk rumah lama kan.
[[ OKKAY ]]
Ada abang abang and one sister pun I rasa macam I anak tunggal semua tak duduk rumah
So..
I pun sesoghanggg lah kan kat rumah ape omputih cakap home elon? eh ke home along? maap lah hihi.
YOU KNOW WHAT :
How it feels when you have to just stay at home and spend the weekend with not-ttthinnnngg.
Bowink angatz angatz okeyyyrrhhh.
I ajak dua orang babygirls tu keluar ada kerja pula.
I ajak si hareez and zaani jogging dua dua tak reply (kalau ajak jog mmg cmtu kalau ajak mkn "pasti reply!")
Bbm yang lain semua part-time lagi haih.
Thus, I'd finally decide to having a so relaxing Saturday on the comfortable couch, with a glass of extra-cold lychee juice and with the tv on and brought me to Star World's world.

YOU KNOW WHAT IS THIS?

TOO SMALL?

WAIT..

STILL SMALL? URGHHH

\

OKAY ENUFFFFFF!

You know what is this? With the unpleasant feeling, I would let you know thattt: 

The right one is : Charcoal

The left one is   : Not-really a charcoal but more likely the same -.-'' It WAS a cake, supposedly to be a cake

But at the time I'm baking my bestfriend just came over and unfortunately we didnt realize how time passing by us till I was totally forgot about the cake at ze kitchenzz.

Thanks to my gay-friend-that-I-hate-the-most ; Ahmad Bakhtiar for being sooo baik hati sebab suddenly he posted my cake dengan charcoal on my facebook's wall. I really-really-really appreciate that!

Well at least, I tell you it tasted good okay though the fact is at the end I threw them out.

But still proud for baking that hihihihiii.

P.S. I can't believe it myself, but I am starting to miss college so much! It has always been the other way round, me missing home etc but this time it's for real; I am IPBL's sick.

Missing something that I lose.

I wish I can talk to Ady like before, but nevermind.

Just found this on myspace, everyone know how we used to be so closed before.

Hopefully soon, will be a bright chance for us to get back.

Seriously I love this friendship.

I miss us, sincerely.

On hold.

I am sleepless, bedless, couchless ( okay sound so stupid).

I am now working on the New Year's wish.

So, catch you later XOXO 

Where there's a will there's a way

Not so lifeless but well maybe true maybe not maybe arrgh whatever.
Since my friends are now busy with final, classes, and assginments and since he also has safely arrived at the campus so I decided to have a very tough-week this week.
Its like "work-outtttttt timeeeee".
You know how unexpectedly I have gained 2 kgs? Okay you can I say am kind of kecoh lebih ((BUT)) ..
If you only korang korang semua dkt my place you would feel apa rasa naik 2 kg....
I know lah korang korang tk tengok gambar hot I time high school kan.
I will show I will show then you may compare and clarify yourself why is that 2kgs scare me so much.

*click for the large image; but I think dont bcs it might scares you hahaha.

Hahahahaha proud much huhhh?!

And soooooo.. 

because of all the fat of me photos, I am still avoiding rice and still doing my exercise-routine.

I wouldnt want to go back to the old me it is scary.

You know how it feels to be fat and chubby gila?

Even people at school called me Polar Bear bcs you know I got a fair-skin and fat, 

so do the polar bear white-and big! pffftttt -.-"

How people cursed you, and called you such embarassing and stupid nickname,

how might you have a very-high-self-confident nor esteem?

That kind of people should be shutted and ditched.

But, bcs of my humbleness I took all of the cursing words to be the spirit of getting shape!

I know I WAS shapeless. But I guess I am no more. Neheee. 

Proud of myself well for those who are now planning to go for a diet, what you need is KESUNGGUHAN.

W/o kesungguhan you wouldnt succeed believe it or not, just believe.

Swim baby swim.

Today is our last day of meeting each other for this very-big-and-special year; 2011.
So, to make it special and extra memorable, I suggest Farid the place that we could spend so much time of talking to each other, teasing, relaxing, no rushing and not so many people.
And another main reason is I'm tired with Shopping mall and mall and mall and mall like daaaaaarghh *jerk*

Suggested : Gold Coast Theme Park Resort, Morib.

(well since it is so near to my new house ,tell yaaa)

Suggestion accepted!
After teman cik abang settle registration fees college dia dkt bank then we had breakfast and..
Here we gooooooooooo!

The resort is easily accessible. Here is some quick-glance of information and approximate timings to help you get started.

35 minutes scenic drive from Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA), Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT), Formula One (F1) Sepang Circuit and 10 minutes from Banting, the capital town of Kuala Langat District. Easy access via major highways from Putrajaya and Cyberjaya.

Just an hour journey by car from Kuala Lumpur, Petaling Jaya and Klang Town, it is easy reachable for those who wish to escape from the hustle and bustle of the city life.

Tourists who arrive at Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA) or Low Cost Carrier Terminal (LCCT) only take 25 minutes journey to reach Gold Coast Morib Resort.

Maju Expressway (MEX)   -   Kuala Lumpur (Kg Pandan) - Cyberjaya - Dengkil - Banting - Morib
North South Highway   -   Nilai (exit) - Banting - Morib
North South Highway   -   Nilai (exit) - Sepang - Tanjung Sepat - Morib
KESAS Highway   -   Klang (interchange) - Teluk Panglima Garang - Banting - Morib

And the ticket to get in:

Adult : RM25

Children : RM15

Okay done promoting. We really had fun today seriously.

Si manjaaaaa berenang dengan gembira haha

 

 

Yours truly :)

       

AND US ..

Double S

Got up with a so not good mood SINCEEEEE...
Farid like again canceled the plan to go out!!  You would never get how mad I was this morning or I bet even any other girls would feel the same if you know your boyfriend keep on postponing your date or wtv plan that are supposed to be done within the time that've been promised. Yet too much distractions or reasons really can spoiled your girlfriend's nor wife's mood okay I tell you dear men.

And soooooooo...
I sit and think of what activity that could cheer me today.
TADAAAAAAA! GOT IT ! GOT IT!

Here the story of the day, begun with..

# FIRST S ; Spagethi.


Okay tuan tuan dan puan puan *Chef Wan's style* harini saya Mariya Anneeyna, one of the candidates of Masterchef Junior would want toTRY to cook a spagethi. Big challenge and stroke my nerves *eyuw bajetnyeww* . Well, as for me I dont like things to be cliche or not-well-ordered, so I akan prepare dulu all the ingredients yang diperlukan.

My bestfriend did share with me few steps to cook this, its really appreciated honey! But you know I've been urged by myownself to google for any simplest recipes than what you gave me last night hihi. So, here we go!

The ingridients :

Dice your onion and garlic 

( depends on berapa byk yang korang suka nak letak )

Dice your button mushrooms

Dice your tomatoesssss 

( well more is better sebab lagi umpppph! )

Stripes your carrot

( I've boiled them first since I want them to be lembut and tak rasa too raw )

Ramly mincemeat 

( well above wasnt a mincemeat, its actually the burger one sebab Zaani gila 

asked to ambik je so I just bought this one, and yet I just need to blend this meat

 sampai lah tercincang mcm ni, as simple as that kannnn.. )

San Remo's spagethi

( You need to boil them with palm-oil /olive-oil/corn-oil nor butter/planta)

Andd of coz you'll need this Prego pasta sauce.

Anddddddddddd...... this is the last product of all ingredients Exclude the spagethi.

TEMPTATION TEMPTATION TEMPTATION TEMPTATION!! :p

Okay, that's that.

Lets move on to the second S

Which it was a...

# Surpriseeeeee sayangg!!!

I like surprise as much as I do for make a surprise itself.

Since last night I was really really reaaaaallaaayyy mad at him and we had a small quarrel *konon2 je tu*

I think that madness isnt supposed to ruin my entire good day lah kan, so apa lagi siap siap start kereta, dengan excited nya I drove to Kemuning Utama, Shah Alam.

Actually cik abg tu tengah tidur, tak senonoh perangai dah after zohor if not mistaken that time dia boleh sedap tidur , I know lah the weather is good to just landing dkt atas vono tapi agak lah broooooo..

I gave him a woken-up call :

Me:   Baby. Goodmornoon! (morning&afternoon) Amboii, kerja buruh ke last night, penat sangat ni?

Him:  Morning sayang, pukul berapa now? *still yawning*

Me:   Its 115pm now, I want you to get up and take your shower now! Text me before 135pm!  

        Otherwise, am not gonna see you again. I'm serious baby, realllllly serious!

Him: Hah? Mana sempattttt? Come on.

Me:  I dont care, okay bye.

So nearest to his place, yet got a bbm saying that he has done took his shower.

And I was like, "Okay wait for me .I havent showered yet dont go downstairs for lunch first, wait until I've done my shower bcs I have something really important to discuss with you!" Hahahahahaha that time I dah tergelak nak pecah perut time drive tau haha.

It was raining, super-heavily raining.

In front of his house ; Bbm-ing

Me:   Where are you? Upstairs?

Him: Yes, sayang dalam bilik lagi ni. 

        *that time guruh memang kuat gilaaaaaa, and it took a long second for him to respond my bbm

Him: What's the matter?

Me:  Why it tooks so long for you to respond my bbm?

     :  Takkan takut guruh kot baby

     :  Muahahahahahahaha

Him: Hahahahahaa 

      : Sudahlah, I saw you dekat bawah okay. Hahahahaha

      : Wait, b siap then I'll come to you in a bit.

Me: * I WAS LIKE WHATTTTTTT!!!!!!*

     : Hah, how come you seeeeee me heh? -.- 

     : Okay lah bye.

Thennnnnnnnn, he said he it was weird when I said that "takut guruh" one to him,

so he took a look at the window of his room and saw me down there he says. 

And after that I drove him to Mcdonalds for latelunch and Pakli for hi-teaa.

I know its sickening everytime am with him since he loves to eat so our spots are usually at kedai-makan okeyhhh. 

Here are some memories for today :

Oh by ze wayzz, his mom loves my spagethi hihi 

well I assumed thats the benefit of cooked it with full-of-love :) 

     

Unpaid teacher

Okay, thought of the plan has been canceled or maybe I hope that Zaani would forget about the study-thing, because supposedly I have a date with Farid but yknow for his own sake (agagaa) ,no dateee for todayhh.

AND YET......

I was totally wrong because Zaani did reminds me of tomorrow (which is today)
but its okay, all of a sudden I'm getting a lil bit excited to teach him.
I need to teach or maybe tutoring him a quick-lesson for english
since he's so near to the final this Thursday.
And I gathered all kind of reference's books that I think are needed.

We have a very quick tutorial class at Mcdonalds today,
And for Gods sakeeee, I dont know why but I feel so embarrassed bcs it seemed like I was okay maybe I should slow down my voice *daaa bukan kau nak ajar satu mcdonalds cikgu oi* hahahaha
anddd tutor him till he get satisfied with all the confussions.

It was actually messy than this. 

Well actually till both of us stopped because we know we are hunggarayhhh hihihi.
Siapa hero dia belanja lah kan tkkn perempuan ayu nak belanja :P
Okay I am not that mean, bcs I just asked him to treat me that Prosperity's Set but without the prosperity itself since I am on diet okay tuan tuan puan puan I dont eat too much so dont worry if ehemmm anyone would want to go out with me .

P/s : Instead of any quick tutorial or wtv kind of revision that you do without prayer and tawakal, it means nothing :)

Boringness

When i dont really have the excitement to write about stuffs, so well wait for another post since I'm going back to the hometown. Byebye xo

The phenomenon.

Well, I can say its a very big phenomena. Eversince my brother and his wife been waiting for so long, for a few days but still havent got the chance to watch it. Its Alamanda Putrajaya stories, thank God at Aeon Bukit Tinggi, Farid and me got the chance to watched it today! We went there about 1030am and bought the ticket for the screening at 11am. Well actually I told Farid that there's a people who told me that OR wasnt that great so its on the spot buried the sense of watching it but yet I've been seduced by my sayang so there we go. Thats that, what can I say is, the person who got sentimental and very touched today was me! While I have Farid sitting next to me, silently nor sentimental-less. Haha well I know some people said, that movie dont even touched them, well thats you not me. We're different right so why should us be compared. You would want me to frankly explain the storyline? Awh, I think you guys should just go and watch it by yourself, I tell you it is worth it to spend only a few bucks for this movie, oha if only you want the cheapest price go to the nearest TGV cinemas on wednesday, they offered the super cheapest ( I know tgv only no gsc no mbo hihi). 

Oh well..

Aaaa wellll....... 

Because of too obsessed w Aaron Aziz and been influenced by O.Rindu..

I have made tiiizzzz.. hihihi

Photoshop Element 6 

The original photo :P

Well, since that I changed my wallpaper on my blackberry to this kikikikii.....

I feel so like celebrities well all I can say i am just a hard die fans of Aaron, just a fans not a fan (kipas tu okay) hahaha. Alright then thats all for today, Assalamualaikum.. Tak jawab dosa, jawab sayang ( inspired ; Maria Elina)

Time For Heroes

We'll die in the class that we're born. Well, it's a class of our own my love.'
I'd rather be a romantic failure than a predictable success.

We're born. We go to school. We work. We retire. We die. A life like any other, bound by society and its unyielding reach that traps us in this monotony. Rigid timetables and bundles of paperwork keep us company as we sit, tired and uninspired. The commute home is silent, thoughtless, and blank. Whatever rest we manage to muster is only interrupted by our alarm clocks. Our days are like a Halloween pumpkin, moulded yet hollow, smiling wickedly at our dissatisfaction. We'll tire, and not the sleep kind. Imagine this repeating. Everyday.

I wouldn't be able to bear it. I can't even bear thinking of the possibility of this as my future. Such strangled repetition, and for what? Money, probably. That little palm-sized piece of paper that guarantees happiness, or so we're taught. I've never understood the value of it. People question me, asking 'Don't you want to have a big house and nice things?'. I've always said no. It's not about that. It's not about living an unfulfilled life for the sake of temporary pleasures. We forget those in the end. Our memories don't save space for such things. I want to do what I know I'd love to do, not something forced and meaningless. Apparently that means I'm destined to fail.

I don't mind. What would I be failing at anyway? Would I be disappointed that I couldn't impress people with expensive cars and pricey trinkets? The world is pretentious. We're deceived into pursuing things that we don't even want. A ceaseless chase which traps us with the belief that we'll be set free by it. We fear the dark, yet we chase shadows. I don't want to be tied down by that, to have to sacrifice my own happiness for 'happiness'. If that requires me to fail, then I will. I'll enjoy every second of it.


'Sleepwalking through every moment we took for granted.'




P/s : Arief Hamizan's. Seriously all his writings are my favourite. (Y)

Mom and daughters

First shot

Second shot

This good time we spent together, couldnt be compared with those time I spent with peers or even my boyfriend because I know family-times are always the best-time. We lunch, we talked, we teased, we laughed, we walked hand-in-hand, we shopped, we complaint, we shared secrets and we.... everything.

'Mac-cheese with pasta-salad and mashed-potato' is highly recommended

( Kenny's)

Silent happiness

Happy 281days of being together sayang. I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about myself, including the things I might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at me. Afterall, I found that you are the man that I want the most, I need the most and I'd never ever imagine if I lose you to somebody else. You're just enough for me. 

So, for a private-celebration for myself without you on this special day, I bought this hand-bangle with the cute-tiny button A and F as for Anne and Farid with the pink string. I love it! I assumed that as a chillin-present for myself .

Red- my fvt, purple- his fvt

P/s : I know it'll be more fun if we celebrate it together baby :)

Wish number six and seven

Fry-day. I've been informed that Roxy would have a 50% off for all members so I was a bit excited, oh well actually extremely excited not really a bit. After fetched Farid at home, all of a sudden I changed my direction and drove him off to Sunway Pyramid, Subang. We are supposed to go to Aeon Bukit Tinggi but yeah  substantively we were so lucky because today's sale only held at Sunway and Klcc , as fact for Aeon Bukit Tinggi would be tomorrow Dec 3rd. Membercard showed, bag given, shop started! I dont really have a high excitement for unwanted stuff because I just need a brandnew purse, and a few stuffs for the upcoming semester and Farid also bought a baby-blue Quicksilver's shirt.

Goodie bag

For lunch, we didnt found any restaurant that attracted our appetite, and I sudden craved for Johnny's and my throat always hail for steamboat meals and unexpectedly Farid also craves for it so we went to The Summit, Subang and had an awesome lunch-date together. We chose tomyam thai meals as it is spicy and seriously a tempting hot-gravy soup.

The golden mushrooms are highly recommended

( the white & long one on the right of this photo )

The tomyamsss

Encik hasben 

Yours truly 

After lunch, I urged Farid to look for a new Blackberry since I feel nothing if its only me using the blackberry, hence I think that he needs one so after seeing all mobile phone shops, and with the sake of my helps on dealing with the dealer, he bought that bold and Farid is officially a blackberry user now! 

His and mine

As I've promised him, once he gets his new blackberry I would buy him the same casing as mine, so I bought that purple for our blackberry , because somehow he likes purple --' and now, glad to say that we are totally a gadget gang, I bought ipod touch 4 because of him since he owned the 3 one, and now he bought that bold for me! And I would want to say that I'm really grateful as God gave me him to be with me, never thought this would happened to me :') Thank you Allah.

Wish number five

Accomplished on the first day of December which is I'd finally decided to bake for him. Since this evening I got nothing to do, instead of only tweeting and having such a dull lifetime so I made up my mind by changing my tshirt and jeans, took the car-key and heading off to the supermarket for the necessary ingredients.

Ingredients that I used :
-Nona Original Supreme Brownies Mix powder
-2 eggs
-1/4 cup of plain water
-1/2 cup of olive oil / vegetable oil
- Nona Cooked Chocolate (for topping)

Well, I dont feel like explain the ways of making the brownies since it has been reviewed at the back of the box. Try on! Then let me know whats your product. Actually for sake it is my very first time of baking, been encouraged by mom and inspired by my lovely bestfriend, Daniele, thanks a bunch!

Introduction

( heat the oven first for 40minutes before you starts baking )

Rising action

( its started to rise )

Climax 

( picture not so clear )

Falling action 

( melt the cooked chocolate for topping )

Denouement 

( final product after poured the melt choc and add on the choc chips and rice)

All I can say, my first try wasn't that bad because seriously it tasted good just the cake was a bit loamy but its worth it for first try (Y). And, besides Farid, his mom also loved it! Hihi sudden feel like going to open my own bakery after my first try hahaha I assumed that is the last December wish! :P